Well, one of the chemo drugs is nicknamed “The Red Devil”. Read anyone else’s cancer blog that has done the AC mix, and the first thing they say is “it lives up to it’s name.”. That it does. The chemo itself is red, and i was (erroneously) under the impression when all the red color was through my system, it was all good. Not.
I experienced quite a few of the known SE over the past week. Every now and then i would feel really good and i know those were times when people were praying for me! Thank you!!! I ended up spending about 4 hours in the doctors office getting fluids and meds on monday, and now we are hoping that my body will start producing white blood cells. i am scheduled to have a blood test to see if the numbers are increasing or not.
Right now they say i am close to being on schedule. But personally it really feels like i’m running behind! i was told to be careful around people since my count is so low. That works, my body is still so weak from the last week i am taking it easy for a couple of days at home. (quick update – after the last 7 days i am 10 pounds closer to those jeans in my basement! woohoo!)
Just a note – Do not trust the internet, or the commercials on tv to accurately portray what chemo and other meds do. Talk to your oncology nurses!! They know the real truth! They live with this every day with their patients – and they will tell you if you ask.
And true to God’s faithfulness, i still have not thrown up. Of course the past few days my body really wanted to, but no. God is faithful. – so now can we add “no nausea” to the no throwing up prayer?
i guess this would be listed as a new prayer request: for me, and for other cancer patients – i am filled with anxiety that in less than a week we are putting a second dose of this in my system. And most cancer patient blogs say that the third dose is the worst. The SE build with each dose. Not surprisingly, they say the fourth dose is the best, but that is because you know you are not going to get anymore. And, supposedly, you can never get another dose in your lifetime. i will have reached the maximum of that chemo that my body can handle.
i don’t know how people who don’t have God to hold onto does this. i have spent more time with him in the past month than probably in the past couple of years. Granted, a lot of that was “please God, make it stop!” but still, i knew my heavenly Father was there with me. Holding me. Getting me through it. Pray for those who are going through this battle and don’t know Christ.
