What a week! My body is not sure which way it is supposed to go. Sometimes i go to bed early, sometimes late, but either way, i usually awake a couple of hours later, from a deep sleep, starving. i keep peanuts in a container by my bed, since a small handful is usually enough to stop the hunger pains, and then my stomach is good until morning. My feet, legs and arms are another matter. Usually sometime around 4am’sh, until i finally give in and get up, i start getting muscle cramps. The only way to stop the ones in my feet and legs is to get out of bed and walk around. The babies are getting used to this by now, but at first they couldn’t figure out if it was time to go outside and potty, or eat, or what. Now they just look up at me when i get out of bed, and then go back to sleep.
Theyd did a cbc blood test run a couple of weeks ago, along with a couple of other tests. My potassium, and magnesium were both in the normal range. i was also not dehydrated, so i am not sure what is causing this. i can’t blame the radiation, since the cramping actually started about a month ago. It just keeps getting more and more.
During the day, the muscle cramping seems to limit itself to my hands, and sometimes about midway down my back on either side. i have charts of pressure points (thank you Shelly!!) so i am starting to try to do acupressure on those areas. i am also trying a few other things that doctors have told me about in the past to help with muscle cramps. Oh, and i thought the ones in my feet were triggered by something at night, but the other day, i took a 2.5 hour nap during the day, and only woke up because they cramped up…evidently it has something to do with me lying down for a set period of time…hmmmm. thoughts? đ
You probably noticed i said i took a longer nap one day. Yep. i am getting more tired, but i am also trying to rest enough so that i don’t fall asleep during normal activities…like talking on the phone, watching tv, etc Counting down to July 18th!
Otherwise, the only other thing that has been interesting to deal with, has nothing to do with the radiation. But since i had my little stint in the hospital, my diet has gotten even weirder than before. That’s saying something. My body does not seem to enjoy healthy foods, ones that i actually like! When i eat salad, cereal, greek yogurt, egg salad, carrots, vegetables of any kind, and most solid foods, it tastes weird, and by the time it gets to my stomach, i don’t usually feel too good. i had most of a baked potato for dinner saturday night. i couldn’t finish it.
But pizza, caprese salad, bits of fried chicken, (not whole pieces), hot dogs, ice cream, ruffles, peanuts, etc. they all seem to be ok. i can’t eat a lot of them, but i don’t get as sick. i just ordered a case of the Ensure Therapeutic Nutrition they gave me at the hospital, and i drink at least one a day. Sometimes twice a day if i can’t get food down. i am keeping my weight even, so i know i’m doing ok in the calorie intake department. Although i do wish i could get a couple of more pounds off, i want to do it the right way. Eating right and moving around more.
i do get frustrated that i can’t do the things i want to do easily anymore…and i know that when the radiation is over and i start rebuilding my strength, it will come back. But i have my moments. i have to share one with you!
i was having a “woke up in time to make it to an appointment” day, and those are so frustrating, i was telling God i wanted Him to hurry up and come back. i was tired of this, frustrated by my limitations, and even more anxious to go home where i will get a new body, see people i have lost over the years, etc.
i got in my car, and the radio was set to a Christian station, and a song was on i hadn’t heard before. Here’s what i heard.
He’s got a plan, this is part of it
He’s gonna finish what He started
He’s got a plan, this is part of it
He’s gonna finish what He started
He’s not done
God’s not done writing your story
No, He’s not done
God’s not done with you
God’s not done with you
Hmmm…think i was supposed to take away something from that? Not surprisingly the name of the song is “God’s Not Done with You” and Tauren Wells sings it. The rest of the lyrics are equally as poignant.
(here’s a link to Tauren Wells page, and the song is near the top:Â
https://www.taurenwells.com/music)
So, God’s not done with me. sigh. And i’m sure He’s not done with you yet either. Maranatha!